from God.....those moments of synchronicity, clarity, intuition.....times you know you have gotten a special little message to answer a prayer.
The prayers I have as of late have led me to some funny signs. One was bunnies.....tons of them in my yard....I only saw the tracks but they were on my front steps, on my DECK, everywhere. It was like they were giving a little message. Bunnies symbolize (in my mind) fertility...and I used to see dead bunnies everywhere. (I know...awful!) About 2 weeks ago I finally saw a baby bunny on the side of the road.....and he darted into the street...it was dark and normally someone would have smucked him....thankfully I was alert and slowed down. He passed across my path, then went darting back from the direction he came.
Also, Flowers and Life.....a dead plant at work, suddenly blooms this month into the most gorgeous violet flowers....the most lush I believe a little violet could get. At home, I had given up on this plant I had had for years...it was dead...totally. Then a few months ago, just as I was going to throw out the dead stems, I see two tiny shoots coming from the dead ones. Life.
And Hearts...little hearts EVERYWHERE....they have been that one sign I knew was her trying to speak to us. About a week ago, I got some news and was on the floor pondering it....hoping it was really real.....and I look down and see a tiny red heart next to my hand. I knew.
God is everywhere, omnipotent is something that is bigger than you think. It permeates every molecule of the universe....You are never then alone, because He is totally surrounding you with love at all times. Even in the darkest days, He is there....He is with you. You just have to look around for the signs.
1/15/2010
1/10/2010
Jesus.
yup....Jesus. Though i humbly write about His name, I must note that I am not a preacher...so don't be put off by the title too much. My friends who know me, know I am not your typical Christian....but that doesn't mean I don't know Jesus, and know who butters my bread.
Jesus was someone who should be understood, even if you weren't raised Christian. Just like Buddha, or the Dalai Lama, or Mother Theresa....He was a man to know. I personally believe he is the Son of God, but one doesn't necessarily need to, in order to be moved and inspired by His greatness. I am still not saying you should go out and convert to Christianity, but just understand it a bit more.
As a man, he did some amazing things, healing the sick, comforting the weary, bringing food to the hungry, opening the hearts of the "wicked" and sooo much more. There are so many stories of supernatural occurrences, and from what I have seen (which I will go into more later) I am definitely a believer that he was more than just a mortal man.
Did I always believe? hell no. :) I was a doubting Thomas for sure....but I wanted to believe. I was a smart kid, who liked to question everything...just ask my mom and dad on that one. :) I didn't like how Christian religion was using Jesus as a tool for so much bad! It just seemed to me that they weren't getting the message.
For someone to wear the title of Christian like a huge golden crown on their head, yet be the uttermost judgemental and bigoted individual was appalling. I know most of these people didn't intend to used Him that way, but some should have really known better. Jesus' message comes right from God, and Love, and compassion.....so when Christian pastors/priests would stand in front of me and a congregation and say how Gay people are wicked, or we are all going to perish for our sins....I just shook my head and walked away.
I walked away from many churches....but the sad part was I loved the church itself. I love walking in to a humble chapel, or a giant cathedral and being filled with the Awe and reverence. To this day, I respect any and every Christian Church...yet, I don't feel all to compelled to go there every Sunday, as I know the message is still a bit muddy.
Am I an expert on God, no. Did I go to seminary for many years? No.... Am I even able to compare my self to those who've given their lives to God (nuns, pastors, priests, etc)...definitely not. Do I think EVERYONE is bastardizing the Message? No. I have seen some get it right.
It is the whole. It is the masses. It is those who are turning it into a way to make themselves look high and righteous, when they do more evil than good. When they preach and teach the wrong message (my opinion)....when they make church a circus. I am worried that especially in this country, we are using God to get bad things done, and twisting His words to fit our purposes. (for wars, for death row, for political gain.) Honestly....this probably makes both God and Jesus sad to see, yet these are still their children, and they are likely praying for them to truly see.
I really feel there is bad stuff about, trying to pull the masses to darkness. It comes out as a lamb, but is absolutely the wolf. The thing about these people trying to push this evil, is that they cannot get to me. I can SEE them now for all their darkness....and they don't like me. And sadly, many of the people I love are sheep, who have fallen into this dark lamb's prey. (am I losing anyone here...if so, I apologize) :O)
When I speak of Jesus, I do so because I have to. I do so because I am compelled to, inspired to. I know these things I feel are being sent with good intention. I can only hope one day i am worthy enough to pass His message on...I feel I am being pushed to do so, but I have such a long way to go before I am worthy to.
All I wish to say today is....Open Your Eyes. Be aware of the Truth. Ask Jesus for guidance to The Way of Good and Light and Truth. That is all you have to do for now. Be wary of the people who use Christ in politics....these are definitely wolves...they know our weakness for God and Jesus (after all, most of us WANT to believe in that path of goodness.) And they will exploit it for any need they find. Realize you have THOSE types and then there are those who don't bother to believe....who have forgotten the message. It all comes down to loving people as God would love you. I am not a fan of the bumper stickers, but when you look at the words "what would Jesus do?" .....really take it in.....would Jesus REALLY do that? You have the right to question your Church....and if you don't go to church....you should question it anyway....just see where it takes you. :)
Jesus was someone who should be understood, even if you weren't raised Christian. Just like Buddha, or the Dalai Lama, or Mother Theresa....He was a man to know. I personally believe he is the Son of God, but one doesn't necessarily need to, in order to be moved and inspired by His greatness. I am still not saying you should go out and convert to Christianity, but just understand it a bit more.
As a man, he did some amazing things, healing the sick, comforting the weary, bringing food to the hungry, opening the hearts of the "wicked" and sooo much more. There are so many stories of supernatural occurrences, and from what I have seen (which I will go into more later) I am definitely a believer that he was more than just a mortal man.
Did I always believe? hell no. :) I was a doubting Thomas for sure....but I wanted to believe. I was a smart kid, who liked to question everything...just ask my mom and dad on that one. :) I didn't like how Christian religion was using Jesus as a tool for so much bad! It just seemed to me that they weren't getting the message.
For someone to wear the title of Christian like a huge golden crown on their head, yet be the uttermost judgemental and bigoted individual was appalling. I know most of these people didn't intend to used Him that way, but some should have really known better. Jesus' message comes right from God, and Love, and compassion.....so when Christian pastors/priests would stand in front of me and a congregation and say how Gay people are wicked, or we are all going to perish for our sins....I just shook my head and walked away.
I walked away from many churches....but the sad part was I loved the church itself. I love walking in to a humble chapel, or a giant cathedral and being filled with the Awe and reverence. To this day, I respect any and every Christian Church...yet, I don't feel all to compelled to go there every Sunday, as I know the message is still a bit muddy.
Am I an expert on God, no. Did I go to seminary for many years? No.... Am I even able to compare my self to those who've given their lives to God (nuns, pastors, priests, etc)...definitely not. Do I think EVERYONE is bastardizing the Message? No. I have seen some get it right.
It is the whole. It is the masses. It is those who are turning it into a way to make themselves look high and righteous, when they do more evil than good. When they preach and teach the wrong message (my opinion)....when they make church a circus. I am worried that especially in this country, we are using God to get bad things done, and twisting His words to fit our purposes. (for wars, for death row, for political gain.) Honestly....this probably makes both God and Jesus sad to see, yet these are still their children, and they are likely praying for them to truly see.
I really feel there is bad stuff about, trying to pull the masses to darkness. It comes out as a lamb, but is absolutely the wolf. The thing about these people trying to push this evil, is that they cannot get to me. I can SEE them now for all their darkness....and they don't like me. And sadly, many of the people I love are sheep, who have fallen into this dark lamb's prey. (am I losing anyone here...if so, I apologize) :O)
When I speak of Jesus, I do so because I have to. I do so because I am compelled to, inspired to. I know these things I feel are being sent with good intention. I can only hope one day i am worthy enough to pass His message on...I feel I am being pushed to do so, but I have such a long way to go before I am worthy to.
All I wish to say today is....Open Your Eyes. Be aware of the Truth. Ask Jesus for guidance to The Way of Good and Light and Truth. That is all you have to do for now. Be wary of the people who use Christ in politics....these are definitely wolves...they know our weakness for God and Jesus (after all, most of us WANT to believe in that path of goodness.) And they will exploit it for any need they find. Realize you have THOSE types and then there are those who don't bother to believe....who have forgotten the message. It all comes down to loving people as God would love you. I am not a fan of the bumper stickers, but when you look at the words "what would Jesus do?" .....really take it in.....would Jesus REALLY do that? You have the right to question your Church....and if you don't go to church....you should question it anyway....just see where it takes you. :)
1/08/2010
einsteinwithwings.....
Ok..some brief explaining on the name....
I chose this long ago for my email address. It seems as though I am making reference to being an uber intelligent angel. I sooo lost my halo long ago. :)
It came because I LOVE Einstein (and angels too), but there was this movie called IQ with Meg Ryan and Walter Mathau playing Einstein. He went for a motorcycle ride and put his arms out like wings and says "WAhoooooo"... :O) (thus einsteinwithwings@yahoo) he he he. :O)
The other day I tried "googling" einsteinwithwings, and found this fabulous photographer, who had taken a picture of a fuzzy-headed little bird, and she said he looked like einstein with wings. lol.
Oh and side note....."Einstein" has a great quotable from that movie...."Don't let your brain interfere with your heart" and a quick scene about the wahoo....
Catherine Boyd: You took Albert Einstein for a ride on that thing? (motorcycle) Ed Walters: Sure. Catherine Boyd: Well don't ever do that again! Ed Walters: Come on. He loved it. He went Wahoo. Catherine Boyd: Wahoo? Ed Walters: When's the last time he said Wahoo? Catherine Boyd: Well I'm sure I don't know. Ed Walters: When's the last time *you* said Wahoo? Catherine Boyd: Well I'm *sure* I don't know.
I chose this long ago for my email address. It seems as though I am making reference to being an uber intelligent angel. I sooo lost my halo long ago. :)
It came because I LOVE Einstein (and angels too), but there was this movie called IQ with Meg Ryan and Walter Mathau playing Einstein. He went for a motorcycle ride and put his arms out like wings and says "WAhoooooo"... :O) (thus einsteinwithwings@yahoo) he he he. :O)
The other day I tried "googling" einsteinwithwings, and found this fabulous photographer, who had taken a picture of a fuzzy-headed little bird, and she said he looked like einstein with wings. lol.
Oh and side note....."Einstein" has a great quotable from that movie...."Don't let your brain interfere with your heart" and a quick scene about the wahoo....
Catherine Boyd: You took Albert Einstein for a ride on that thing? (motorcycle) Ed Walters: Sure. Catherine Boyd: Well don't ever do that again! Ed Walters: Come on. He loved it. He went Wahoo. Catherine Boyd: Wahoo? Ed Walters: When's the last time he said Wahoo? Catherine Boyd: Well I'm sure I don't know. Ed Walters: When's the last time *you* said Wahoo? Catherine Boyd: Well I'm *sure* I don't know.
1/07/2010
more information on the inspiration
Open your eyes...why that title? So many reasons...but here is one.
A long long long time ago....when I was about 16, I had an experience where I am sure I had heard the voice of God. Yup...not just some voice in my head, not some schitzophrenic conjuring...the true voice of God. Totally different voice than the one that tells me I am fat, or sits in constant worry about how my kids are doing. No, this voice was Big....and by Big I mean it came from the heavens Big....but yet it was quiet and just for me. Sort of like the sound of the wind rustling thru the trees on a bright summer sunshiney day.
I had been a melancholy teen...who wasn't in the mid 90's? But I also prayed...more than usual...because I was so down. I journaled alot, and cried alot too. I really wanted something to happen, something to be a sign (I have always been big into "signs")
I was set to go to a language camp for a month that summer, to take French for credit for HS. I was driving to GF one day, and was very hung over....(some friends and I got into some shenanigans on the home front.) I clearly heard the voice, and it said, "Open your Eyes." So I am thinking what the heck does that mean? I kept my eyes on the road, just in case it was some sort of traffic type warning.
Got to camp, and I heard the voice again, same thing, "Open your Eyes." It was a resonating sound that made my whole body hum. So I sat out on this open wide futbol lawn that was surrounded by the most beautiful trees and above an oceanic umbrella of blue blue sky. I focused on the words....said them in my head (and yes that voice was clearly different, clearly my own in a pondering tone.) Then something shifted. That is the only way I can think to describe it....it was like everything just widened and expanded and moved slightly over....and things were more vibrant, things were more clear.....I noticed life all around me. I noticed Love all around me and it was everywhere!
It was like I had always had tunnel vision, but now I could CLEARLY see....this is the kind of see I think of when I watched the movie Avatar, and the characters said, "I see you." When you have experienced that, it is like touching heaven for a moment.
To live in this state of mind consistently would be amazing. It gets hard for me....but remembering that I have been there, I know I can find my way back.
I pray you all find that one day....there is alot out there, past the blinders, past the muddy goggles.....a whole bright and amazing world...even in 40 below zero with raging clipper winds. :)
A long long long time ago....when I was about 16, I had an experience where I am sure I had heard the voice of God. Yup...not just some voice in my head, not some schitzophrenic conjuring...the true voice of God. Totally different voice than the one that tells me I am fat, or sits in constant worry about how my kids are doing. No, this voice was Big....and by Big I mean it came from the heavens Big....but yet it was quiet and just for me. Sort of like the sound of the wind rustling thru the trees on a bright summer sunshiney day.
I had been a melancholy teen...who wasn't in the mid 90's? But I also prayed...more than usual...because I was so down. I journaled alot, and cried alot too. I really wanted something to happen, something to be a sign (I have always been big into "signs")
I was set to go to a language camp for a month that summer, to take French for credit for HS. I was driving to GF one day, and was very hung over....(some friends and I got into some shenanigans on the home front.) I clearly heard the voice, and it said, "Open your Eyes." So I am thinking what the heck does that mean? I kept my eyes on the road, just in case it was some sort of traffic type warning.
Got to camp, and I heard the voice again, same thing, "Open your Eyes." It was a resonating sound that made my whole body hum. So I sat out on this open wide futbol lawn that was surrounded by the most beautiful trees and above an oceanic umbrella of blue blue sky. I focused on the words....said them in my head (and yes that voice was clearly different, clearly my own in a pondering tone.) Then something shifted. That is the only way I can think to describe it....it was like everything just widened and expanded and moved slightly over....and things were more vibrant, things were more clear.....I noticed life all around me. I noticed Love all around me and it was everywhere!
It was like I had always had tunnel vision, but now I could CLEARLY see....this is the kind of see I think of when I watched the movie Avatar, and the characters said, "I see you." When you have experienced that, it is like touching heaven for a moment.
To live in this state of mind consistently would be amazing. It gets hard for me....but remembering that I have been there, I know I can find my way back.
I pray you all find that one day....there is alot out there, past the blinders, past the muddy goggles.....a whole bright and amazing world...even in 40 below zero with raging clipper winds. :)
open your eyes - snow patrol
"Open Your Eyes"All this feels strange and untrueAnd I won't waste a minute without youMy bones ache, my skin feels coldAnd I'm getting so tired and so oldThe anger swells in my gutsAnd I won't feel these slices and cutsI want so much to open your eyes'Cause I need you to look into mineTell me that you'll open your eyes [x4]Get up, get out, get away from these liars'Cause they don't get your soul or your fireTake my hand, knot your fingers through mineAnd we'll walk from this dark room for the last timeEvery minute from this minute nowWe can do what we like anywhereI want so much to open your eyes'Cause I need you to look into mineTell me that you'll open your eyes [x8]All this feels strange and untrueAnd I won't waste a minute without you
1/06/2010
my first post
I realize how badly I need to write. I thank God for my good friends, and the wisdom they bring. I am on a spiritual path to learn and teach. I am guided and blessed. I sound perhaps a bit cheesy....but I guarantee, everything I have experienced is real.
I love seeking enlightenment, truth, and Love. God is real....maybe He isn't a "he"...maybe not a "Christian" version...but these are the things I know. I have opened myself to the possibility of God and the reality of His Light in my life.
I have to say, I am not your typical Christian, "bible thumpin" evangelistic type....so far from. No offense ever to those who are....we can all get along (at least that is my hope). I was a bratty only child, with an imagination as big as the sky and at a very early age, I began seeking answers. I was never confined to the simple definitions of the Catholic Church I was raised in. Though to this day, I know where my roots were nourished.
I hope we can begin a journey together....I hope this journey brings you light, peace and love everlasting. The Truth really is out there....but also in your heart and soul. You really need not look too far away to find God. :)
I love seeking enlightenment, truth, and Love. God is real....maybe He isn't a "he"...maybe not a "Christian" version...but these are the things I know. I have opened myself to the possibility of God and the reality of His Light in my life.
I have to say, I am not your typical Christian, "bible thumpin" evangelistic type....so far from. No offense ever to those who are....we can all get along (at least that is my hope). I was a bratty only child, with an imagination as big as the sky and at a very early age, I began seeking answers. I was never confined to the simple definitions of the Catholic Church I was raised in. Though to this day, I know where my roots were nourished.
I hope we can begin a journey together....I hope this journey brings you light, peace and love everlasting. The Truth really is out there....but also in your heart and soul. You really need not look too far away to find God. :)
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