I'm an INJF. Well, that explains a lot. Though I could have gone a few paths along the test route, I do think this was accurate.

INFJ (INTROVERTED INTUITIVE FEELING JUDGING)

As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.

INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.

INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions. This is something of a conflict between the inner and outer worlds, and may result in the INFJ not being as organized as other Judging types tend to be (e.g. a messy desk in an otherwise orderly work area).

The INFJ is a natural nurturer and is patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring.

INFJ STRENGTHS

• Creative – Combining a vivid imagination with a strong sense of compassion, INFJs use their creativity to resolve not technical challenges, but human ones. People with the INFJ personality type enjoy finding the perfect solution for someone they care about, and this strength makes them excellent counselors and advisors.
• Insightful – Seeing through dishonesty and disingenuous motives, INFJs step past manipulation and sales tactics and into a more honest discussion. INFJs see how people and events are connected, and are able to use that insight to get to the heart of the matter.
• Inspiring and Convincing – Speaking in human terms, not technical, INFJs have a fluid, inspirational writing style that appeals to the inner idealist in their audience. INFJs can even be astonishingly good orators, speaking with warmth and passion, if they are proud of what they are speaking about.
• Decisive – The INFJ's creativity, insight and inspiration is able to have a real impact on the world, as INFJs are able to follow through on their ideas with conviction, willpower, and the planning necessary to see complex projects through to the end. INFJs don’t just see the way things ought to be, they act on those insights.
• Determined and Passionate – When INFJs come to believe that something is important, they pursue that goal with a conviction and energy that can catch even their friends and loved ones off guard. INFJs will rock the boat if they have to, something not everyone likes to see, but their passion for their chosen cause is an inseparable part of their personality.
• Altruistic – INFJs have strong beliefs and act the way they do not because they are trying to advance themselves, but because they are trying to advance an idea that they truly believe will make the world a better place.

INFJ WEAKNESSES

• Sensitive – When someone challenges or criticizes the INFJ's principles or values, they are likely to receive an alarmingly strong response. People with the INFJ personality type are highly vulnerable to criticism and conflict, and questioning their motives is the quickest way to their bad side.
• Extremely Private – INFJs tend to present themselves as the culmination of an idea. This is partly because they believe in this idea, but also because INFJs are extremely private when it comes to their personal lives, using this image to keep themselves from having to truly open up, even to close friends. Trusting a new friend can be even more challenging for INFJs.
• Perfectionistic – INFJs are all but defined by their pursuit of ideals. While this is a wonderful quality in many ways, an ideal situation is not always possible – in politics, in business, in romance – and INFJs too often drop or ignore healthy and productive situations and relationships, always believing there might be a better option down the road.
• Always Need to Have a Cause – INFJs get so caught up in the passion of their pursuits that any of the cumbersome administrative or maintenance work that comes between them and the ideal they see on the horizon is deeply unwelcome. INFJs like to know that they are taking concrete steps towards their goals, and if routine tasks feel like they are getting in the way, or worse yet, there is no goal at all, they will feel restless and disappointed.
• Can Burn Out Easily – Their passion, poor patience for routine maintenance, tendency to present themselves as an ideal, and extreme privacy tend to leave INFJs with few options for letting off steam. People with this personality type are likely to exhaust themselves in short order if they don’t find a way to balance their ideals with the realities of day-to-day living.

FAMOUS INFJ'S

• Benedict Cumberbatch
• Carl Gustav Jung
• Plato
• Leo Tolstoy
• Daniel Day-Lewis
• Cate Blanchett
• Agatha Christie
• Tilda Swinton
• Mahatma Gandhi
• Michelle Pfeiffer

CAREER CHOICES

• Clergy / Religious Work      
• Teachers      
• Medical Doctors / Dentists      
• Alternative Health Care Practitioners
• Psychologists      
• Psychiatrists      
• Counselors and Social Workers      
• Musicians and Artists      
• Photographers      
• Child Care / Early Childhood Development

INFJ IN SUMMARY ...

Seek meaning and connection in ideas, relationships, and material possessions. Want to understand what motivates people and are insightful about others. Conscientious and committed to their firm values. Develop a clear vision about how best to serve the common good. Organized and decisive in implementing their vision.

I'm back.

Found my way back. A renewal of faith needs to happen. Somehow I was shown back to this point ...and I have a feeling there is good reason. About to embark on a new journey - love long and prosper. ✋

A house divided against itself cannot stand!

great words, straight from the bible, quoted by Abe Lincoln.

I have been thinking again...about religion and politics (as they are shoved up my ass every direction I turn)...and realize that there has to be middle ground, middle ground that unites us.

As I argue with my husband about the importance of church, I remind him that "church" is not the bad guy....it is people who use church to create a collective negativity. What I think, is that Christianity especially, needs to get back to its roots...what is the root of "Christianity?" Christ...duh. Even a 2 year old can tell you what the Christian church is about. Jesus loves me this I know....

Church needs to gather its people...to teach them to be united for the collective good. Afterall, what does church do best? Gather good people, in the name of a good man, to pray for other people and "create" positive outcomes. Now...there are many people out there (the true evil in my opinion) creating a negative collective consciousness. When a large group of us push out the same negative thought, it creates a dark cloud that will take the rug out from under us...when we least expect it.

Why spread the darkness, misery, evil and negative? Why not find the common ground? Where in the hell did people get the idea that God/Jesus would be all for capitalism, survival of the fittest, and not taking care of our weary, our tired, our poor? But they preach it, like religion, on one very "Christian" side of the fence.

We are deeply and greatly divided. The purity and reasons for the initial divide were intended perhaps to be "good" but they have been bastardized and turned evil, for their own selfish purposes. I don't claim to never do something purely for my own selfish reason.....I am not perfect....however, I am trying.

When a person gets so far into the lies, and deceit of the "devil"....they believe their own lies, they believe the lies are the Truth of the Word....they no longer can "see" truth. You can look into someone's heart and see "holiness" or a lack of it....but you have to train yourself. You have to learn how.

For the life of me, I cannot really recall how I got to some of the understanding that has been graced upon me...I definitely feel the struggles I have overcome, and the prayers of people who loved me made the difference.

Try something....just pray on one small topic for a week...then set it free to God. Write that prayer down somewhere, so you can refer back to it, but then "forget" about it....and see what unfolds. Prayer is a strong believing that you can ask God to make a change, and the Faith you have that it will happen. This is what people like Wayne Dyer also talk about, in a sense, with their power of intention and creation...however...people can't take "God" out of this equation.

I honestly feel that not everyone was ready for "The Secret"....it is almost like the tree the knowledge of good and evil. That is our roots....we have tasted the fruit...but what are we going to do with it? I pray the world seeks to do good, because people...we have the power....With God and His Holy Spirit...we really do have the power to change the world, even if just one person at a time.

Ash Wednesday

Man, I have not enjoyed an Ash Wednesday quite so much as this one. Strange?

A group of cyber friends and I, had set a time for group prayer that evening. The crazy thing is, that I totally felt like they were all there. I was in my room, closed my eyes, and held my hands out, as if to hold hands in a circle. I prayed specifically for each lady and her current struggle, and I could just feel the warmth of God and the Holy Spirit around us. It was one of those moment where you just can feel He was listening.

We all lit candles in our own space, which is spread all over the US and even some UK folk too. It was so powerful and amazing. At the end of the prayer, I took the ash from the match, and made a sign of the cross on my forehead, as I asked for blessing and forgiveness. My kids were a little confused by my black ashen "t" on my head, but I just smiled and said I would tell them one day more about it.

Now I am terribly excited to learn more about this specific tradition, as I know I didn't pay quite so much attention when going yearly to Catholic church for this ritual. It just means more now.

When people Die, they aren't really Dead

My husband and I were having a discussion this morning. He has long been fascinated with the "unknown" and phenomena of life and the after life. He watches things like Ghost Hunters and those others like it.

His faith was greatly shaken when his mom passed on Christmas Eve only a year, and a few months ago. He just doesn't "know" what happens, but wants to know she is alright. He also believes in God, raised very Catholic (even went to Catholic school.) Yet he still just doesn't "know" there is anything but this.

Me on the other hand....am a strong believer of God and miracles, and life beyond death. But I have also never had someone QUITE that close to me die. Will my faith change? I am sure it would. I don't even want to think of it. There are just certain people that I NEED in this world, to survive and thrive.

Saying that, I still believe...and am trying to help him believe. He says that he asks to "see proof," asks God for contact, a sign, something tangible. But I argue that he does get signs...he just is expecting a certain "type" of sign. He expects a vision of the Holy Virgin Mary...and I said he has to open his heart and mind to experience something so radical as that. There is a reason children often experience these kinds of visions....they fully and wholely are open to the impossible.

He thinks there must be some scientific measure of this, for it to be real....and I say...science may not yet have the tools to truly measure these things, but a human has all the ability in the world to experience it. He says if you can't measure it, it cannot be proven - thus, it is not real.

So that is what we argued about all morning. :) And as he was wrapping up his debate, I said with a loving smile, "Honey, just ask for proof then. Ask to see a ghost." And he said, "I don't WANT to see a ghost, I just want proof." So I said, "Ask for proof, then." (I know he'd crap his pants if he saw a real ghost...so would I now...which is why I ask to be left alone...but I HAVE seen things...which someday I will post.) Anyway...just as I said that, and was leaving the car to go into work, I grabbed something off the dash and next to it was the book my good friend had lent me, called "Glimpse of Heaven."

I said ....here...read this....God is trying to tell you something. Here is your proof. :) (yes, it is small...but we cannot ignore the small signs, because even small signs, most often ...as long as you are firmly on the path of Good and Light, are signs from God. )

I walked into work feeling quite happy and giddy at the realization of such an instant answer. Thank you God, for your amazing miracles.

signs

from God.....those moments of synchronicity, clarity, intuition.....times you know you have gotten a special little message to answer a prayer.

The prayers I have as of late have led me to some funny signs. One was bunnies.....tons of them in my yard....I only saw the tracks but they were on my front steps, on my DECK, everywhere. It was like they were giving a little message. Bunnies symbolize (in my mind) fertility...and I used to see dead bunnies everywhere. (I know...awful!) About 2 weeks ago I finally saw a baby bunny on the side of the road.....and he darted into the street...it was dark and normally someone would have smucked him....thankfully I was alert and slowed down. He passed across my path, then went darting back from the direction he came.

Also, Flowers and Life.....a dead plant at work, suddenly blooms this month into the most gorgeous violet flowers....the most lush I believe a little violet could get. At home, I had given up on this plant I had had for years...it was dead...totally. Then a few months ago, just as I was going to throw out the dead stems, I see two tiny shoots coming from the dead ones. Life.

And Hearts...little hearts EVERYWHERE....they have been that one sign I knew was her trying to speak to us. About a week ago, I got some news and was on the floor pondering it....hoping it was really real.....and I look down and see a tiny red heart next to my hand. I knew.

God is everywhere, omnipotent is something that is bigger than you think. It permeates every molecule of the universe....You are never then alone, because He is totally surrounding you with love at all times. Even in the darkest days, He is there....He is with you. You just have to look around for the signs.

Jesus.

yup....Jesus. Though i humbly write about His name, I must note that I am not a preacher...so don't be put off by the title too much. My friends who know me, know I am not your typical Christian....but that doesn't mean I don't know Jesus, and know who butters my bread.

Jesus was someone who should be understood, even if you weren't raised Christian. Just like Buddha, or the Dalai Lama, or Mother Theresa....He was a man to know. I personally believe he is the Son of God, but one doesn't necessarily need to, in order to be moved and inspired by His greatness. I am still not saying you should go out and convert to Christianity, but just understand it a bit more.

As a man, he did some amazing things, healing the sick, comforting the weary, bringing food to the hungry, opening the hearts of the "wicked" and sooo much more. There are so many stories of supernatural occurrences, and from what I have seen (which I will go into more later) I am definitely a believer that he was more than just a mortal man.

Did I always believe? hell no. :) I was a doubting Thomas for sure....but I wanted to believe. I was a smart kid, who liked to question everything...just ask my mom and dad on that one. :) I didn't like how Christian religion was using Jesus as a tool for so much bad! It just seemed to me that they weren't getting the message.

For someone to wear the title of Christian like a huge golden crown on their head, yet be the uttermost judgemental and bigoted individual was appalling. I know most of these people didn't intend to used Him that way, but some should have really known better. Jesus' message comes right from God, and Love, and compassion.....so when Christian pastors/priests would stand in front of me and a congregation and say how Gay people are wicked, or we are all going to perish for our sins....I just shook my head and walked away.

I walked away from many churches....but the sad part was I loved the church itself. I love walking in to a humble chapel, or a giant cathedral and being filled with the Awe and reverence. To this day, I respect any and every Christian Church...yet, I don't feel all to compelled to go there every Sunday, as I know the message is still a bit muddy.

Am I an expert on God, no. Did I go to seminary for many years? No.... Am I even able to compare my self to those who've given their lives to God (nuns, pastors, priests, etc)...definitely not. Do I think EVERYONE is bastardizing the Message? No. I have seen some get it right.

It is the whole. It is the masses. It is those who are turning it into a way to make themselves look high and righteous, when they do more evil than good. When they preach and teach the wrong message (my opinion)....when they make church a circus. I am worried that especially in this country, we are using God to get bad things done, and twisting His words to fit our purposes. (for wars, for death row, for political gain.) Honestly....this probably makes both God and Jesus sad to see, yet these are still their children, and they are likely praying for them to truly see.

I really feel there is bad stuff about, trying to pull the masses to darkness. It comes out as a lamb, but is absolutely the wolf. The thing about these people trying to push this evil, is that they cannot get to me. I can SEE them now for all their darkness....and they don't like me. And sadly, many of the people I love are sheep, who have fallen into this dark lamb's prey. (am I losing anyone here...if so, I apologize) :O)

When I speak of Jesus, I do so because I have to. I do so because I am compelled to, inspired to. I know these things I feel are being sent with good intention. I can only hope one day i am worthy enough to pass His message on...I feel I am being pushed to do so, but I have such a long way to go before I am worthy to.

All I wish to say today is....Open Your Eyes. Be aware of the Truth. Ask Jesus for guidance to The Way of Good and Light and Truth. That is all you have to do for now. Be wary of the people who use Christ in politics....these are definitely wolves...they know our weakness for God and Jesus (after all, most of us WANT to believe in that path of goodness.) And they will exploit it for any need they find. Realize you have THOSE types and then there are those who don't bother to believe....who have forgotten the message. It all comes down to loving people as God would love you. I am not a fan of the bumper stickers, but when you look at the words "what would Jesus do?" .....really take it in.....would Jesus REALLY do that? You have the right to question your Church....and if you don't go to church....you should question it anyway....just see where it takes you. :)